The Why

Yesterday I cared for a frail, elderly gentleman in the PACU.   It was obvious to me he was in his last days. He had just had his feeding tube replaced. As he woke up and started to talk with me.  Weak, unable to eat normally due to advancing cancer, in pain, and breathing with difficulty, he told me of his fears that he wouldn’t be able to make it through this latest hurdle. He confided in me a memory of the last conversation he had had with his own grandmother on her death bed.  His grandmother had been proud of the young man he was becoming.  He told me he wasn’t ready yet to give up fighting.  We talked about how we all do the best we can in tough situations.  At the end of his short stay in our PACU, I thanked him for sharing his story with me. We squeezed hands, he looked me in the eye, glanced down to my RN name badge and back up to my eyes. I gave him a smile and sent him on his way. I don’t believe I will see him again.
Life is a gift.
We don’t get a reset button.
Love and believe.

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